Tsom Shovavim – again

For a few years now, I’ve been trying to promote a renewal and reconstruction of an obscure Jewish fasting practice called Tsom Shovavim. Why do I do it? I mean, I barely make a dent promoting what the tradition considers one of the most important holidays, Shavuot, and that is a celebration with cheesecake! So 12 days of fasting over six weeks?! Seems like a hard sell.
I do it because Tsom Shovavim seems very suited to our times, offering a ritual practice for the very necessary turn from despair to hope. It’s so easy to beat ourselves up! So easy to give up! And here, hiding in the corners of Jewish tradition, is a practice of discovering that beating ourselves up is itself the sin to repent of, a practice of cleansing ourselves of despair.
The story associated with Shovamim (in my version) (this year): After Adam and Eve ate the fruit and were expelled from the garden, and Cain killed Abel, Adam gave up. He thought he and the whole human enterprise were doomed. So he refused to sleep with Eve for a hundred thirty years. God thought that was terrible. It damaged the world. The tikkun (the repair) began much later in Egypt. The Israelites had been there also a hundred thirty years and Moses’ mother, Yocheved, was a hundred thirty years old, when she gave birth to Moses. She dared to reclaim God’s hopefulness from the days of Eden by seeing that Moses “was good – ki tov,” in spite of Pharaoh’s decree that he was so dangerous he should be thrown in the Nile. Over the next six Torah portions, Moses (with God’s help) will defeat Pharaoh and teach the Israelites and the world that it is possible to build a society that is good and just.
Those six Torah portions have names that form the acronym “Shovamim,” which means “wayward” or “rebellious.” There’s a passage in Jeremiah in which God says, twice, “shuvu banim shovavim – return wayward/rebellious youth.” In what way are we “wayward?” Rebbe Nachman says in our believing about ourselves that we’re somehow separated from God, the SOURCE OF HOPE. And so we’re called to return, as Yocheved and Moses did. I’m also interested in the translation “rebellious.” In one sense, it might be read as calling those who rebel against God to return to God. But we might also understand it as a call to return to rebellion – against modern Pharaohs and the forces of despair. ‘Come back, rebellious youth! We need you!’
So the practice: Over the six weeks of Shovavim, the first six Torah portions of the book of Exodus, one might fast from dawn to sunset each Monday and Thursday. (There are alternative versions in the tradition that replace fasting with going vegetarian, giving tzedakah, or fasting from un-useful talk.) This year, the first Monday fast would be New Years Day (one doesn’t fast on holidays – does that count?) and the last Thursday would be February 8th.
And why fasting? In Judaism, fasting is associated with return (teshuvah). In general, fasting is a powerful spiritual practice that promotes awareness, purposefulness, and the sense that one has some control over their own life. I first discovered Tsom Shovavim when seeking a Jewish tradition that might offer some of the spiritual benefits I noticed of the extended fasting of Ramadan in Islam.
I’ve created a short liturgy to recite each morning of the fast. It understands that passage in Jeremiah as rejecting unuseful shame, urging a “just do it” attitude of return to God, truth, justice, and equity. It goes like this:

Jeremiah 3:22-4:2
“Return, ye backsliding, rebellious children, I will heal your backslidings.”
“Here we are, we have come to You; For You are the HOPEFUL our God.
Truly the hills have proved false, The mountains a confused uproar; Truly the salvation of Israel lies in the LIBERATING our God.
But shame has devoured our parents’ labor since our youth; Their flocks and their herds, their sons and their daughters:
‘Let us lie down in our shame, and let our confusion cover us; For we have sinned against the ETERNAL our God, we and our ancestors, From our youth even unto this day; And we have not hearkened to the voice of the ETERNAL our God.’”
“If you would return, O Israel, says the ETERNAL, return unto Me; And if you would remove your detestable things from My sight, and not waver; And would swear by the life of the ETERNAL in truth, in justice, and in equity; then shall the nations become blessed by It, and by That One will they become praised.”

Rebbe Nachman :
Gevalt, Jews! Do not despair! The main thing is to be as strong as you can, for there is no despairing in the world!
Have mercy on us and hear us crying out! And let us merit to bring forth awareness and knowledge and general redemption!

Come back, rebels! Come back, youth!

May the Merciful One who answered Eve answer us!
May the Merciful One who answered Yocheved answer us!
May the Merciful One who answered Miriam answer us!
May the Merciful One who answered Nachshon answer us!
May the Merciful One who answered King David answer us!
May the Merciful One who answered Judah the Maccabee answer us!
May the Merciful One who answered Clara Lemlich answer us!
May the Merciful One who answered Manya Shochat answer us!
May the Merciful One who answered Abraham Joshua Heschel answer us!


Sfat Emet (Shabbat Shuvah)
Let us return, Adonai, to you, to cleave to the divinity that dwells with us. And then, we – It and I, as it were – will return
השיבנו [ה’] אליך להתדבק בזה האלקות ששוכן עמנו ואז נשובה – כביכול אני והוא

הֲשִׁיבֵנוּ ה’ אֵלֶיךָ וְנָשׁוּבָה חַדֵּשׁ יָמֵינוּ כְּקֶדֶם:
Hashivenu adonai eleha venashuva hadesh hadesh yamenu kekedem
[Bring us back to you, POSSIBILITY, and we will come back. Make our days new as before.]

Tzom Shovavim

I’d like to recommend a fasting practice I started to observe last year, Tzom Shovavim. 

In our congregation’s interfaith work, I’ve been impressed by the spiritual (and, probably, health) benefits of Ramadan fasting for our Muslim friends and went looking whether there was any equivalent Jewish practice of a period of sustained fasting.  It turns out there is. It’s called the Shovavim Fast and the version I’ve taken on involves a sunrise-to-sunset fast Monday and Thursday for the six weeks from the Torah portion Shmot through the week of the Torah portion “Mishpatim,” or, in Jewish leap years, through Tetzavah (when the fast is called Shovavim Tat, for reasons I’ll come to in a moment.) So much of the spiritual path is about encouraging ourselves to live with purpose and awareness, and an extended period of fasting is an excellent way to do that.

The Shovavim fast seems to be of late Medieval kabbalistic origin and was never widely accepted.  Perhaps because of its obscure origin and sporadic observance, it also has a very wide range of versions of practice – more than most other Jewish customs.  Some variations include: Fasting only in leap years; fasting only Thursdays; fasting every day except Shabbat, Rosh Hodesh, and Tu BiShvat; fasting half days; replacing the fast with giving tzedakah or eating vegan/vegetarian. There is a version in several hassidic communities of replacing the food fast with a speech fast (“tzom dibur”), in which one doesn’t say anything at all except words of holiness.

Why these six (or eight) weeks? The simple answer: the acronym of the Torah portions spells out the word, “shovavim – שובבים,” meaning “wayward,” or “naughty.” That word appears only twice in the Tanakh, both times in Jeremiah Chapter 3, when God says twice: “Return, wayward children! שובו בנים שובבים” So the acronym of this Torah season is taken to hint at the passage in Jeremiah, telling us that this is a good season for the spiritual work of return – teshuvah. And fasting is a standard ritual of teshuvah. (When a leap year extends the fast, the acronym is also extended: Shovavim Tat. I’ll say a little about that below.)

There are also deeper connections that can be made between teshuvah and this series of Torah portions, spanning from enslavement to liberation, revelation, and the establishing of a just society.

One set of connections is based on a relationship between a sin of Adam and that process moving from Egyptian slavery to justice.

Devarim Rabbah (Margulies edition) 1:12
Rabbi Simon said: For one hundred thirty years, Adam stayed away from his bed. Why? Since he sired Cain and Abel, and Cain arose and killed Abel, and not only was he killed, but even Cain was headed for curse and destruction, … When Adam saw that, he said: If this is what I sire, and they head for curse…. What did he do? He stayed away from his bed a hundred thirty years, as it is said, and Adam lived one hundred thirty years and afterward he begat in his image and likeness (Gen. 5:3). What did the Holy Blessed One do? Added more desire to his desire, so he had intercourse with Eve and begat Seth.

Adam refuses to sleep with Eve for a hundred thirty years! God is clearly unhappy and has to intervene.  But what’s the problem exactly? In the above version, it’s seems that Adam has despaired of humanity and its future. He thinks “original sin” makes humanity hopeless and not worth perpetuating, and that, itself, is a sin! That very much speaks to me, and we’ll see that the Exodus narrative is very relevant to it. Luria follows a version in the Talmud (Eruvin 18b) that imagines Adam begetting all sorts of demons in those 130 years. The sin is that he wasted semen, and, worse yet, instead of making babies, it made demons! I have to say I’m not very interested in that version of this story, but many hassidic versions of Tzom Shovavim do take that direction and concentrate on the tikkun of sexual sins.  (It’s anxieties about sex and pregnancy that explain the particular attachment of this fast in some circles to leap years; In Hebrew, a leap year is called a “pregnant year.”) Finally, I’d like to suggest another possible understanding of Adam’s hundred-thirty year sin: Adam refused to take any responsibility for the sin of the fruit, blamed it all on Eve, and thought that angry distancing, negating the other, would somehow help the situation. Another excellent sin.

But what does Adam’s long sin have to do with the Exodus story?  It may be that the connection is originally based on another midrash (Bemidbar Rabbah 13:20): “Go calculate that from the day our ancestors went down to Egypt until the day Moses was born was one hundred thirty years.” So if Moses’ birth is the beginning of redemption, the experience of enslavement and slavery lasts exactly the same time as Adam’s despairing/angry separation from Eve. Perhaps, our ancestors thought, the two are connected?

Certainly, according to the Torah, our ancestors in Egypt did something that Adam refused to do: make lots of babies.  And they, too, had reason to despair. In fact, a well-known midrash (for example in Talmud, Sotah 12a) speaks of Moses’ father, Amram, divorcing his wife, Yocheved, after Pharaoh decreed that all the Hebrew baby boys should be thrown into the Nile. And all the Israelites followed his example. But their daughter Miriam convinces him that his decree is worse than Pharaoh’s for it eliminates the daughters as well. He remarries Yocheved (and everyone follows suit) and Yocheved bears Moses. And do you know how old she was? The same passage suggests that she was born just as Jacob and his family entered Egypt, so she was 130 when Moses was born! The connection is made very explicit  in the kabbalist Torah commentary Ba’alei Brit Avram by Avraham Azulay (17^th cent.), who claims, citing Isaac Abravanel, that Yocheved was a reincarnation of Eve, and Moses was a reincarnation of Seth.

We need not “accept” all that extravagant storytelling, but we can agree that the human condition gives reason for despair both due to our general existential state, and due to our specific political and social sins, and that the Exodus story teaches the importance of hopeful, self-responsible action.  We mustn’t reject the other and we mustn’t reject the future. Teshuvah – repentance – is not an act of despair or self-abnegation.  It is an act of hope. It’s based on the faith that the future can be better. Sometimes “shovavim” is translated “rebels” or “rebellious ones.” Rebellion, too, when done right, is an act of hope.

So this season of Tzom Shovavim can be a season of repenting of our despair and of committing to hopeful action, action that, as in the Torah, looks forward to the needs of future generation and works toward a just society for them that is an appropriate dwelling-place for the divine. 

There’s another understanding of the connection of this cycle of Torah readings and the return of wayward children brought by Rebbe Nachman of Breslov’s chief desciple, Reb Noson (in Likutei Halachot, Yoreh Deah, Laws of Shaving 5:9). Here, Reb Noson is working with the hassidic notion that the essence of “exile,” of which bondage in Egypt is the paradigm, is exile from God – more exactly, exile from the knowledge that God is right here with us all the time:

And this is the quality of Shovavi”m, when those who are fit have the custom of fasting and crying out to blessed God with prayers and penitential liturgy. For in this season, we read in the Torah about the exile in Egypt, and their redemption, which came through their crying out, as written above.  And we need to do the same now in this exile, as written above.  And so: “Return, wayward children – shuvu banim shovavim” (Jeremiah 3:14, 22), for the essence of troubles and exiles – may the Compassionate One save us from them – is in a lack of knowing, which is the quality of the wayward, when everyone goes around in the world like a literally crazy wayward person, as it is said (Isaiah 57:17), “The went wayward on their [own] heart’s path.” And when a person understands all this about themselves, how they are wayward and literally crazy, because they follow the stubbornness [or: imagination] of their heart and don’t pay attention to the eternal end-point, they will certainly have pity on themselves and do a lot of crying out to blessed God, and in that way will merit, in accord with their own qualities, to understanding and knowledge, which are the essence of the means to redemption generally and specifically, for each person and each time, as is written above. 

For Reb Noson, we’re “wayward” in the sense that we’re stuck in our own heads, wrongly thinking (like Adam!) that we’re separate beings, unconnected to the Web and Source of Life, and that’s a form of exile – the main form of exile. And so, like our ancestors in Egypt, we need to cry out, and, the Torah promises, our cries will surely be answered as we discover that we can march out of our “Egypt.”

I’d like to invite others to join me in reclaiming this fasting practice. Some of the benefit of the Ramadan season is not only in the fasting, but in the nightly gatherings to break the fast. Perhaps (after the pandemic) Jews can also take up that lovely practice for Tzom Shovavim.